Pain is Better Shared. (Entry 2)

Is there such a thing as Right love, Wrong time? Or maybe it is just not meant to be? Those are the perfect descriptions to Calypso's love for Odysseus. And I believe it is also what I myself went through. I once fell in love with a guy who I thought I would be able to spend eternity with. But I was wrong. From the start, we both had our priorities set and sadly, to him it was all ranked and it does not matter what my ranking was because clearly I am no longer his priority. As for me, each was of equal importance because I thought "kaya naman!" 

And so, I started to dream of our future together. However, it was only my dream. Just when I thought we were both in it together. He, on the other hand, started making his own without me. I understand that at this age it is normal to prioritize our dreams over love but what I could not accept was how his dreams were greater than his love for me that it ate it all up - he even killed the little hope i had left in me. It was like everything I did for him was nothing and that he was always ready to leave when he had the chance to. So, when the day finally came, he made his decision. And it just was not me. Sad to say, but maybe it is true - there is a reason why people come into our lives. It was time for our love story to end so maybe I can focus on myself - in being better. And I can only wish him well. It is time to let go now in order to allow us both to continue with our own lives without being in each other's arms. This is such an unfortunate fate I share with Calypso and that somehow I can say I understand how she feels because despite Calypso being a goddess who can provide everything she was just not good enough for Odysseus because his heart was already filled and there was no more space for her just like it was for me and the guy who I fell in love with. So, the next time I fall in love, I will make sure that his heart belongs to me and he can love me whole-heartedly.

The Surrealism in My World (Entry 1)

Often times, when we hear of the word Fiction, we associate it with fantasy, supernatural powers and adventures in another world that is usually created by our imagination. 

But, we also tend to forget that there is more to the entertainment, laughter and story plot twists it brings - there is a hidden truth that has yet to be uncovered. Sometimes, fiction shows the best realities or even the things that go unnoticed because it is boundless both in writing and in thinking . We are free to think deeply and endlessly simply because with fiction comes the uncertainty and limitless possibilities. This can be put to use by authors who write even the most nonsense things you can ever think of or 

For example, Harry Potter could have been set in New York but why did it have to create another world - Hogwarts - where most things happened but the main character Harry Potter, himself, is a human being with special abilities? How can that be? In Hunger Games, the characters do not have supernatural powers but rather, they were competing in a computer-generated world that is ran by none other than humans. What does this mean or imply? 

The two examples truly show that with fiction nothing is impossible. Just how it can use simple humans into doing extraordinary things, it is also capable of fusing both the realities of life and the what ifs in life. This can be seen when a fictional character’s strength may also be its weakness or its flaw may be its greatest lesson - its safe to say that through these characters we learn what to be and what we ought not be.

In my life, fiction works like the wind. It is not physically seen as it is more of created by the mind but its impact can be felt strongly within me as I, too, am battling with myself and in life. I am a character in my own story. And it helps to know that I am not alone. With fiction, it made me think that "Hey! Other's have had it worse but look at how strong they became after going through such a thing." So, in a way, it served as an inspiration or that of a strong force that helps me pull myself together in difficult times. One of my favourite fiction is The Mocking Bird by Harper Lee. Yes, the characters are made up but it was set in a real country and depicted its era perfectly - the time where racial discrimination was evident. More than Atticus Finch's heroism as seen in the story, his words of wisdom really had an effect on me especially the quote "You never really consider a person until you consider things from his point of view... until you climb inside his skin and walk around in it." With that said, Fiction does not only make reality more interesting but it also gives it more life so that these realities will be a part of our imagination until it turns into a dream that can someday change reality.